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Some people may know this but I am … okay hold up.. I had a fear of heights. If you didn’t well now you do. Sooo with that being said I can’t remember a time where I freely volunteered to face that fear, well not until my best-friend’s birthday. Unlike me she is all up for dangerous adventures and of course her birthday was the only way she would get me not to bail on her plans.
I remember talking to my mom about wanting to be tick things off my bucket and surprisingly although I am scared of heights, I’ve always wanted to go zip-lining: bungee jumping and sky-diving… Kinda weird, I know. Anyways my mom compared to me has an adventurous personality, so of course she encouraged me to try out various activities.
My best friend basically chose to celebrate her birthday at “Go Ape: an outdoor adventure company which runs Tree Top Adventures, Forest Segways, Tree Top Junior Adventures and Zip Trekking Adventures.” Basically we had to complete a bunch of activities tied to a zip line.
A few days before the day I was nervous, but it’s not until we got there that I realised that it’s one thing saying you’d like to face your fears and another actually being in the situation where there’s really no way back. Because at this stage we were getting strapped up, given instructions and guidelines etc. To be fair at this stage I could have decided to turn back but naaaah my scared self stayed plus I wasn’t terrified… YET
It wasn’t until I had to take the first jump. That first jump that gets you pumped or whatever. I got there and at that moment I knew I’d messed up. I’d already pictured falling out with my best friend!truly I wanted to throw a whole tree at her short self. I’d pictured the worse case scenario like in my head I fell from the tree! Broke a leg! Lost my entire life! Call me dramatic but eeeeey I was terrified!!! My heart was beating out of my chest! My body was shaking… I was dizzy… Couldn’t talk then I teared up! At that moment I genuinely wanted to leave! This wasn’t worth it!
Although I was debating in my head and genuinely wanted to leave.. I am actually grateful for my friend’s encouragements because that played a part in me not giving up,so thanks guys!So after recollecting myself I thought what the hell let’s do this!
Then I went for it! And honestly it wasn’t as bad as thought it would be! I jumped towards the net and truly those few seconds were so freeing. Although I realised that I have no upper body strength whatsoever can we just focus on the fact that I did it! YAAAAY! WELL DONE TABITHA! From that first jump I kinda got into it even though I constantly had to whisper to myself “You got this! Don’t look down!don’t look down!” and from one obstacle to another I completed the entire set to the finish line. Finally!
I got my certificate, had a snack, chilled with my friends and reflected at the fact that it really wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be and that I could proudly say I faced a fear and conquered it.
Will I go back? Hmmm probably not… Will I challenge myself to a similar activity.. Hmmm probably.. Will I be attending my best friend’s birthday next year? Nope!!her birthday is cancelled for two years…I need to recover from the emotional trauma she caused!
But seriously this experience made me realise that things seem to be 10 times worse in our minds than in reality. So from that little story like myself.. Don’t be afraid to face one of your fears. It really isn’t as bad as you think. We are definitely stronger than we think we are. I’ve been able to tick that off my bucket list and I am willing to conquer another fear.
You are strong! Capable! Don’t be your own limitation!
I hope you enjoyed that story time/motivational message.
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